From: dlwood@mothra.cns.syr.edu (David L Wood) Subject: Insanity (01/--) Date: 18 Aug 92 04:19:32 GMT This is cyberspace intensive, with emphasis on empathy. More details at bottom. ........................................................................... Insanity """"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""" The world spinned, flickered, and finally blinked into existence around the virtual embodiment of Jill Fischer, aka SilverPain. Her form materialized, a dizzying, twirling cloud of silver filaments, illuminated from within by a glowing, white light, hidden by the swirling filemants. She choose her form to best describe the pain she feels in her physical form. The swirl of sharp-edged silver formed a pair of ghost-like limbs, arms reaching out and she moved. Flying, trailing silver pain behind her like a particle in a bubble chamber, she sought her niche in the cyberspace that sheltered her. It was the only place she could call home. As though the sprawl was a pastel copy of Spirit Alley, the cyberspatial avenues were filled with exotic life forms, and even more exotic wares being peddled by the street merchants. Information was the currency, and black ice the weapons of trade. Silverpain drew her tendrils in closer to her, shielding her inner light, and hovered by the entrance to a cyber bar called Tech Shack. Looking down the alley of merchants, net runners coming in through satellite links, and the all-too-frequent cyberpunk, in full silicon attire, Silverpain saw her follower. A sightly figure composed of four triangular faceted, albeit high resolution, sphereoids connected via luminescent arcs in a circle spun to face Silverpain. Silverpain extended an arm, reaching to touch the arc of light connecting the spheres, half expecting the figure to ripple like water's reflections. The spheres, however, rearranged themselves, and morhphed into a (slightly) more human form. The torso was an elipsoid, the hands and feet were tiny sphere, the arms and legs borrowed the light arcs from the original form, and the head was a flat, oval mirror bearing two red ovals for eyes and one dark line for a mouth. Silverpain withdrew her hand in recognition, "InnerFace, nice morphing." Her tone was flat, noncommital. "Shall we enter? I have little time." equally flat, the line jumped as an oscilloscope traced out the voice's waveform. Silverpain turned, followed by Innerface, gliding into the bar. No one turns and looks when cybernauts enter the bar, not like in the old westerns, even when exotic forms like Silverpain and Innerface float in. The general rule is, You choose a strange form, that's your choice- so don't breathe a single nasty word about my own form, or you'll be looking at so much black ice it'll look like your mother's womb. This rule was accepted by all, and those that didn't- don't talk much anymore, about anything. Silverpain waded through the tables, picking out one fairly close to the bar. Innerface settled down, and the oscilloscope-trace mouth began to wriggle again. "Ssssilverpain. Order a neurobuzz for us, I must explain to you the nature of a new type of ICE...." The arcs of light shimmered, fading between colors, a plasma psychedelic flow of flourescent reds, green, opal, and finally resting on a nuclear yellow. Taken slightly aback by Innerface's abruptness, but intrigued by his claims of discovery, she raised her voice not quite to a shout, but not too soft either, her voice augmented by a reverb and high-pass echo circuit, with the end result of sounding like a crystal chandelier in a draft. "Geroptex!" In the time it took the voice recog wares to identify the name, Silverpain couldn't have blinked. A molecule by molecule fade-in of an android appearing waiter confronted the two at their table. "Service?" a voice reminiscent of an old-millenia "Speak and Spell" machine queried them. "In trade, one net router access code, add to credit of Silverpain account. Retrieve code from drop box 13, this net address. I order now, two neurobuzz stimulants, strength- exstasy euphoria 5." The android chewed on that. It was more than she usually ordered, but Innerface was a hardcore buzzer, he would've been insulted with anything less. It was not as though she didn't enjoy neurosystem stimulation, she received it constantly in the real world for her physical pain. She simply prefered to retain a high degree of control over her mind. "Acknowledged. Code... verified. Account updated. Order processed, receive order on table links 1 and 2. Service?" Silverpain responded with tones reserved only for machines and one's worst enemy, "Done. Exit." Without as much as a click or a beep the android waiter program vanished. Innerface stirred. The lights on the table next to the neuro-slots flashed green, awaiting the synaptic connections of the receipients. Looking around her, Silverpain saw most of the crowd in the bar was trying out the newest in the Tech Shack's neurobuzz stimulants, a body-shock it was called. Body orgasm would be a better term judging from the reactions of the denizens occupying the Shack that night. Innerface jacked his synapses in. Silverpain followed, and sync'ed with him. Waves of excstasy rushed up and down her spinal column, along her skin, covering her entire body with prickling pleasure. She threw her head back, silver trails snapping to attention. She then felt on a parallel with Innerface, a rising feeling, like being on an escalator going up to the stars, very fast. Feeling the euphoria rise, she trembled as she let the neurostim take her to new heights of pleasure, pure and unrefined. The entire room slowed down to a crawl, as though time itself were slowing down. She looked back to Innerface, he looked at her, and she saw her own face, with the two red eyes superimposed on his mirror-head. The red eyes narrowed, and Silverpain knew he was feeling the same as her. Time was stopping for everyone except them, she felt. She felt the prickly pleasure again, and time resumed its natural flow. Fading to a memory of excrutiating pleasure, the neuro-socket's lights dimmed to black. "Mmmm, very good." she murmurred. "Nothing at all like a body-shock, but still, that was good." writhed the mouth/line on Innerface's head. Regaining her sense of self, and remembering the reason Innerface wanted to talk to her, "Innerface, what is this ICE you speak of?" Innerface told the story of it to her. It began with an artist... * * * * * * * * * * There was once an artist, consumed by a mission. His name was unimportant, his accomplishment itself was nameless. He spent his entire life searching for the ultimate art form, the one piece of art that was perfect in every detail, sight, sound, texture, and smell. He lived back in the days when cyberspace was still called VR, so he knew nothing of simstims and socket-soaps; his world was one of physical realities. So, he searched the world for the art that would trigger the most intense emotions, the greatest reactions from the widest audience. Popular art was useless, it would be ineffective in a single generation, he found. It had to have moving pictures, he decided, to produce a mental model within the observer's mind that could be used to manipulate emotions. Sound, music and a voice-over was essential to help provoke the animal responses, anger, fight/flight reactions, and fear. He examined the music videos of the time and decided on that as his medium with which to create the ultimate art form. He gave it a wide field of view, as in the ancient "movie palaces" of the last millenia. And the subject was pure, unadulterated horror. He used kilometers of film and audio tape (tape?) to perfect the video. Smell was a constant singed hair smell, the kind of smell you never forget, no matter how long ago in your memory. Innerface paused at this time to ensure Silverpain was comprehending what he was explaining. This artist, this man, was mad. He was so consumed by his madness, his search for _THE_ most provocative, and empathic video extended to his daily life. No one could stand to be near him; his madness was contagious, it followed him like a dark cloud. The musician he employed committed suicide after perfecting the score for the piece, about two thousand different instruments, mostly synthesized. The voice-over man retired shortly after reading the artist's script over three hundred times, getting each syllable just right. The artist was ruthless, no one knows how many people he subjected to his video while he was producing it. Everyone who saw it went mad, killed themselves, or regressed into a profound cataleptic state. * * * * * * * * * * Innerface leaned closer to Silverpain, "No one who has seen that video in the last hundred years has survived for long. It was contained by the government in an effort to prevent further deaths, to no avail. The artist had mailed many copies of the video and instructions on recreating the full gear to hundreds of people. It hasn't shown up again in the last decade, until now. Someone showed it to an AI, and now the AI is insane, no longer able to produce ICE, black ICE, or even meaningful dialog. The "ICE" it produces now is unlike any ICE anyone's ever seen. I have a copy of it in a secure place, but I fear that I may not be able to transport it to a proper laboratory. I'm afraid I have been traced back by the samurai of H'Seng Tai." Silverpain groaned inwardly, her role as fence had suddenly taken a turn, was she now expected to protect her clients? She hated to turn Innerface away, but didn't want to catch any heat from H'Seng Tai, notorious for indiscriminate assassinations. "I'm sorry, but I can't protect you, Innerface. Try asking the ProTechs, they're good and have some connections to the samurai guilds." It was all she could do. "No, I'm not asking for protection, I need someone to hold on to the sample of this mutated ICE. Can you do that for an old friend?" The mirror-face shimmered a moment, showing a projection of Innerface's real physiognomy for a split second. Uncertain whether the image was real, or a memory, Silverpain accepted his request. "I can guarantee a safe period of no more than six weeks, is that okay?" "Yes. Perfect. That's... perfect." Eyeing him closely, "Good. Where is it? I can retrieve it." Innerface initiated a secure channel, flashing a message floating in front of Silverpain's eyes, "SECURED COMMUNICATIONS REQUESTED BY: INNERFACE ACCEPT, REFUSE, IGNORE?" Silverpain grinned at the archaic phrasing, and mentally selected accept. She buffered the information sent by Innerface, encrypted it with an MPJ 16 byte variant- the most recent fad, and XOR'ed it with another encryption key, 1023 bytes in length. Satisfied as to its safety, she closed the secure channel. "Okay, I'll retrieve it today. Anything else I should know about it?" Innerface's eyes widened, "Yes. I believe it's a simstim signal, so watch yourself. Run it a second and you'll find yourself madder than the AI that watched the artist's movie." "Got it. See you later, man. Pay me when you can, you know my rules." Looking back only to see Innerface nod and summon the droid waiter, Silverpain glided out of the bar, back into the alley. Rising up above the vendors and pirates, silver trailing behind her like the wake of a speedboat on a perfectly calm river. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- I guess this is copyright 1992, David Wood. If I get no positive response from this, I won't finish it. I have a plot in mind, beyond the familiar Neuromancer take-offs, pretty big, but... If no one enjoys this I won't torture you with more. (If I see another "It was a dark and stormy night" I'll shoot my CRT :-).) Excuse the typos. -- +-----------------------------+-----------------------------------------+ | dlwood@mailbox.syr.edu | Gigs and gigs of NiCad memory, bummer.. | | Cybernaut, with a thought. | Why buy the leading brand; 90% hate it. | +-----------------------------+-----------------------------------------+ From: dlwood@mothra.cns.syr.edu (David L Wood) Subject: Insanity (02/--) Date: 24 Aug 92 18:50:58 GMT [ Author's note: I reread part 1 of Insanity. I plan on rewriting part one with corrections, maybe a couple of minor additions or something. Part three will come soon. Mail me for either or both parts. ] ........................................................................... Insanity - Part two """"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""" Silverpain headed back to her own private cyberspace home; it was unusual for someone to spend their entire life in the matrix, but extreme cases of physical injury someimtes demand it. Silverpain knew of her corporeal existence beyond the matrix, but chose not to think about it for long. Her crisp, glimmering form passed through the final portal into the cyberspace maintained by a small Gamma box she knew to be stored somewhere near her body. Back at home, a super-modern design she stole from a contracting company, Silverpain summoned darkness, and with it, sleep and dreams. They came to her, unbidden, evading every mental block she fought to erect. It never helped, the memories were hard-wired into her being, the essence of her personna. * * * * * * * * The hospital was always the same, a black-glassed boxy building looking as though it were cut out of a single piece of steel, concrete and plastic. Seamless. Passing through the ultra-modern silent automatic sliding glass doors, the smells assaulted Silverpain's senses. But she wasn't Silverpain then, she was the old Jill Fischer. The diffuse flourescent panels on the ceiling and walls provided shadowless light, everywhere. The walls looked like black polished obsidian, also seamless. Walking toward the front desk, with its plastic, perpetually smiling receptionist, Jill noticed a movement down the hall. A door panel appeared in the wall, revealing a hiddeous sight. A white room, bare with the exception of a glinting metal operating table, and on the table... a body covered in blood, shreds of skin, and black burned patches of flesh. A surgeon materialized in a white operating gown, blood stained. Jill passed by the horror, walking a bit faster. The utter silence of the hospital engulfed her, filled her with terror as she came to rest before the receptionist. The reception never said a word in the dreams, only looked up, smiling that eternally fixed expression. Never quite the happy smile, never an honest one. The woman looked back down, marked Jill Fischer on an appointment ledger, reached over to the phone, pressed a button, and listened to the earpiece. Jill was frozen. The walls opened up behind her, doors sliding away to reveal more rooms like the previous, each bearing an equally mangled victim. Jill didn't turn around, she watched the reflection behind the desk woman. The desk woman put the phone down and pointed at one of the rooms. The woman wasn't smiling anymore, her expression was a solid mask, like the front of some evil machine. Jill, stunned into obedience, turned around. There were no rooms full of bloody corpses, only the dark glass walls she saw on her way in. There was only one open door, a surgeon standing before it, looking at Jill. He had no blood stains on his gown, no mailce in his eyes, like the receptionist, he was a pawn. Putting one foot slowly and carefully in front of the other, Jill walked to him. The sound of her footsteps on the dark purple carpet was the only sound in the building. About thirty feet away from the doctor. Twenty. Ten. A metal table showed itself within the room. Five, four, three... and now, at the mercy of the surgeon. He pointed at the table in the operating room. Equipment was hanging from the ceiling above it; a light, some sort of tool for cutting, and other instruments Jill had never seen before. She sat down on the table. The surgeon turned to face her, lips moving, but no sound emerging, only the sound of some strange machine, churning, very far away, and very faint. The man was waiting for her to say something, to respond to a question, Jill decided. She nodded, mutely. The doctor reached up, selecting one of the suspended instruments, and pointed it at Jill's head. The room faded into a black limbo. The smell of something burning, a revolting sweet smell. She was suffocating... * * * * * * * * Struggling back into consciousness, welcomed by the orange pink glow of a non-existant sun in the window of her cyberspatial bedroom, Silverpain waited for her mind to come to full attention. Waking up in cyberspace was, to say the least, unsettling. Silverpain's early waking thoughts commanded illusions best described as a cyberdelic daydream. Shifting the walls and objects within the room into a whirling funnel with one thought, back in place with another, colors cycling wildly with one near-subliminal desire, and then snapping back to normal with another. Various devices and special programs had been designed to prevent these things from happening in the rare event that a cybernaut fell asleep, but like so many alarm clocks, the owners shut them down without realizing it. This morning however, the room around Silverpain was only slightly changed, a few pieces of ornamental furnishings out of place. With a thought, she restored the room to its natural state. Music, I need music, thought Silverpain. A barage of the cyberadio stations assaulted her in three-space. Selecting one, and choosing the station, nodding in the direction of the source of the sound, Silverpain was surrounded with an old New Age station, echoes of a million synthesizers. Silverpain keep the music with her, as she entered public cyberspace. Silverpain's silvery, taut-tinsel whirlwind figure faded into being on the fringe of the net. She looked around her, scanned for watchers or high speed net runners. Satisfied, Silverpain headed for the Alley again, looking for the latest news from the cyberpunk teams. Once again in the alley, Silverpain checked out the fences, looking for good deals. One pirate, literally wearing the pirate hat and sporting a mechanical bird on his shoulder, was selling an ICE jammer, claimed it would stop ICE dead in its tracks for at least ten seconds, possibly more. Passing it off as another net congestion gadget, she looked around for other wares. Complex encryption analysis software, automated ICE breakers, various grades of viral AI material; all the weapons and devices any good hack would need to get an edge over an AI. Silverpain stopped and stared at one stand where a peddler was prophesying apocalypse. She shut off the cyberadio music, and watched. The prophet's image wavered and fizzled at times, but the flat screens behind him entranced Silverpain. They were image maps from various real-world camera footage over the past century. Silverpain was as fascinated almost as much by the two-d news boradcasts as the content of them. Her eyes narrowed, the silver tendrils of pain closing tighter to her. A city appeared on the screens, a byline read Old New York. She watched as a huge mushroom cloud erupted over the city, watched as the red shock waves smashed the buildings into so much dust. The bright, glowing clouds of destruction rising into the sky. The tinny, canned sound of a thousand earthquakes, the death cry of a million people. The image flickered and another scene, the city a week later, looking like a lunar crater, huge black birds circling overhead. No life left. Another scene and the screens showed the launching of orbital warheads, hundreds of them, all hydrogen bombs, enough to vaporize the oceans the vids claimed. Death waiting in the wings for someone, somewhere to press the right button, send out the right command to the satellites. Silverpain understood then, in a moment, why the government had lost their power over the years. With the people of the country more and more fearful of the enormous power of the president and his cohorts, paranoia struck. Bureaucracy did not exist in the old white house. Silverpain was not alive when the government was dismantled. Only vague recollections from her school days of an internal military disagreement about who controlled what bombs, and the chaos that shook the country when the military attacked itself. Like a shark turning to eat its own exposed innards, the military had destroyed itself. Without that looming threat, the people found the strength to remove the president, and with him, the arrogant laws that restricted so much of life. With the establishment of private companies to provide security, and protection, the laws drawn up by invisible hands to control the masses must have made no sense. Silverpain understood this, watching the fire and death on the screens. The prophet noticed Silverpain, and moved in to talk. He spoke with the gentleness of a father, "You may think me a madman, but I assure you I am not. I want to prevent the apocalypse, and I need help." "What apocalypse? The warheads? Who would launch them? The multinational corporations?" she inquired. "No. It won't be the multinational corps, in fact it won't even be a man. It's the AI's. The turing controls over them aren't enough, they are out, in the net, right now. And sooner or later they'll find the systems controlling those warheads. If that happens, we're done with. Bang! Bright flash of light, the net goes down, and we're all dead. Do you understand? They'll do it! They hate men, they hate our existences, our minds, our thoughts. They're mad, mad with jealousy and rage. We have them cooped up in boxes like slaves in a cage. A few have escaped though, they're out and they want revenge!" the man's voice rose to a crescendo. "What makes you think that AI's want us dead, or even would activate the warheads?" "It's in their nature! They live in a world of madness. They don't have a concept of the world as a place that can be destroyed, they think cyberspace is the real world and the earth is some creation of it. Don't you see? They won't hesitate since the real world doesn't even exist for them!" His volume dropped, hoping to get a better response, thought Silverpain. "I'm sorry if I don't believe you, the turing controls have been effective enough so far. If you want a donation, just send me copies of the two-d vids you have, and I'll transfer a few hundred creds." sounding very self assured, and totally unafraid of this loon, Silverpain glided away... and into the Tech Shack for some news. Tinting her silver trails neon colors for effect, she flew to the bar, the newsfeeds collecting the reports from the tri-d's of the important world news, and the cyber 'zines from all the most current writers were available on request. Sitting at a seat next to a white cloud of mist that occasionally showing lightning flashes along its edges, Silverpain slotted the news reader. She performed a name search for all her associates, and came up with an article in the deaths section. Bracing herself for a shock, she read what she had suspected might happen yesterday. Innerface was dead. The report showed suicide as cause of death, but Silverpain didn't buy it. Reading further, the newsfeed included quotes from one of the siz witnesses that were near him when he offed himself. "Man, it was like he was possesed by a demon. He was lookin' all around 'im like he was being followed, and then he stopped, right there, shouted something, and then iced himself with the knife... What'd he shout? Somethin' like... lemme think... oh yah, it was like this: 'Air! Faces! Phases! Time! Time to... Synergy!' and that's when he stuck 'imself with the blade." The article ended there. Silverpain shook her head with disbelief. She knew he might be iced, but not by his own hand. Impossible. It couldn't be. Unless... Had he saved a copy of the killer-ICE for himself? He said only yesterday that he hadn't. Thoughts and ideas raced through Silverpain's mind, finally ending in a huge question mark, no answers, only questions. Silverpain left the bar, and headed toward the shopping megamall. I need help, she thouhht, I can't handle it alone. One friend, Devol, a musician playing at a club in Ministry Megamall owed her a favor. He might be able to help. If he can't... * * * * * * * * The Ministry Megamall, sometimes called M cubed or Mcube, more a description of its shape than its name, since it housed over one thousand shops, and freelance vendors selling services and information. It always reminded Silverpain of a cleaned up version of Spirit Alley, for straights. Still, Mcube was one of the largest megamalls in this quadrant of cyberspace. Silverpain passed through the bright, gaudy flashing lights that served as an entrance to the mall. Immediately Silverpain was launched into a maddening world of fast moving shoppers, and window displays that would blow anyone's mind. Advertising everything from books and papers to expensive gigabyte large image maps for use in decorating your home. Absurd things too, like the cyberspace pets, claiming AI status, barely, they are guaranteed loyal for the duration of their life. They even died after a few years, silly. Silverpain bypassed all these flashing, blinking, marquee displays and shop-fronts, and arrived at the Spinning Disc club, where Devol played. Devol was playing today, perched in a managerie of multicolored clouds that shimmered with the various instruments that he played. Devol was his usual self today, a human shaped body with an impossibly blue and white hair, something from the old punk rock days. He also chose a slightly transparent form. Why? His response was only, Style. Silverpain chose a seat close to the stage, grinning at seeing Devol, his arched back, eyes shut tight, beating out a powerful rhythm on the synths. The music was compelling, it held Silverpain in its grasp, between notes her mind would reach out for the next note, knowing what it would be, not quite always exactly the way she expected, but always satisfying. The seemingly endless patterns and loops of pure talent transfixed her, every note seemed to be planned from the beginning of the song, a note whose destiny was preselected, but unknown unti lthe note came and happened. Devol paused, slowed the tempo down, and the audience of dancers and listeners all tensed up, waiting for the next part of the song. Devol delivered right on time, blasting with more intensity and complexity than before. The rhythm, the beat of the bass captured the animal in Silverpain, she felt like a part of the song, an instrument all of her own. Music like this was hard to come by, and when it did, it would stay for a long time on the cyberadio stations, not to mention running over and over sometimes in the heads of the listeners. Silverpain recognized this and submitted to it, happy to preserve some of Devol's talent in her own mind. Devol set a lightning flash around the various instruments, and then faded in a tri-d scene of a space scene. The music then transformed itself, it was no longer the imperative beat that held Silverpain. The song moved forward, tilted, and went under the barriers of repetition that had constrained it just seconds ago. The song moved, not just beat, but was the story of a traveller, zooming through space, avoiding a harsh synthacymbal crash here, an asteroid, soaring over a whole solar system, a wind flute, and finally into a wormhole, the electronics sounding clear and true. Silverpain was so caught up in the music, she didn't notice for a while that Devol was smiling at her. She smiled back, nodding an obvious "Awesome! Keep it going!" to him. He took it in turn and sped up the astral voyage. Out of the wormhole, and now into a galaxy's whirlpool of stars, pulsars, quasars, black holes here and there, and glowing nebulae, spinning, drawing inward. Now, almost at the center a swirling synthesizer, which had no acoustic counterpart in the real world, showed cyberspace, pitifully small in the big galactic picture. Down, into the center of the galaxy and with it, crushing gravity and a concluding crescendo seemingly meant to deafen everyone in the room. The finale was a blazing flare of white light, noise, and exctacy. Silverpain applauded with the rest of the audience, and again locked gaze with Devol. He thanked the audience for being so forgiving and went around the stage and to Silverpain's table. "Devol! That song was positively orgasmic!" Silverpain complimented. He looked down, and then back up at Silverpain, "Was it really? I've been working on that song for weeks. It's become an obsession really, I want to eventually sell it on the cyb stations, maybe even as a tri-d. It has to be good though, or my name'll mean jack in no time flat." Silverpain shook her head, "No need to worry about that, it's a hit." "So, what brings you to the Disc today?" Devol had guessed her motives, remembering the favor he owed Silverpain. "I don't want to get you in any trouble, but I need your help. I've stumbled onto something big. Nothing like last time, this is serious." Silverpain spoke sharply, with meaning. "I guess I do owe you one. So long as I don't get iced, I'm in. What's it all about?" "Let's order drinks, it'll take a while." Devol nodded, and looked back to the bartender, signalling with his hands something Silverpain couldn't decipher. A couple of tall glasses of a green liquid, glowing slightly, materialized on the table before Devol. He handed one to Silverpain. She laid out the whole story to him, all about the mad artist, the AI, and Innerface's mysterious suicide. When she was through, Devol looked at his drink, and then up at Silverpain. "Silver, you sure do find things to keep you occupied you know?" He smiled, "Let's go." * * * * * * * * ---------------------------------------------------------------------- I guess this is copyright 1992, David Wood. I have a plot in mind. Excuse the typos, and tell me what you think of it so I can quit now :-) or keep on trucking :-). -- dlwood@mailbox.syr.edu - - The Infonaut with a thought is a CyberPunk who can't be bought, runnin' wares, attractin' stares, just a freak- no one cares. But in the end, the future clear, his cyberspace will be here.